well wow its been so long since i wrote or been on here but yeah, i have been slowly recovering and looking back on the things i wrote on this blog its horrific to me, everything that was said and the vibe is like its a different person and as if its not me now idek too scared to read through it for many reasons, but yes i am doing better thank god, its weird having good things happen, im learning and it was a lesson and i do come out stronger everytime and hopefully it will help in future up coming events but i dont wish any of it on anyone,

just going to leave a note here that me and Luke are no longer bestfriends nor friends nor aquaintances its like i never even knew him at this point, we didnt fall out, he didnt try and i stopped trying and caring so honestly it doesnt bother me because i can say that i dont care, he randomly sometimes messages me saying '' i miss you '' like hahah excuse me wheres the proof n actions at lad, can never believe nor trust his words because to me its fake now, he always had an excuse on why he cant talk to his '' BESTFRIEND '' bc too far cant meet, fair but why he talkin to the other people far away when he met me like boy bye done dont care nomore dont got any time for your bullshit excuses an fake words BAAIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII