So... What depressing topic haven't i went over in this blog hmm? I mean i am a bit proud of myself as all of this that i am feeling, nobody knows about, just me, my mind and my conscience right, i'm capable of smart things its just that people doing give me the support that i actually really need. Its kinda easy telling my whole life story on here, right now its 01:55 am in the morning and i am planning on sneaking outside, i feel bad about it but i really want to feel some excitement and rebellion at this time right now, i'm risking a lot, mostly trust from my mum and that's what i'm scared the most from, but i wanna live a little, i don't particularly enjoy going out once a month on a Friday night, just for the same shit to happen over and over again, i'm so bored of it but i'll still continue to do it. Listening to a lot of my old 2014 songs lately and it's the best thing I've done music wise in a long time i didn't realize how much i missed these songs, for instance i'm listening to Flight Facilities - Crave You (Adventure Club Dubstep Remix) as i write this. Anyway i'm doing better, i just need to deal with how i handle my anger, people think i joke but i really get mad easy and ugh its annoying, anyway wish me luck, such a stupid decision but bye.