( this was suppose to be posted 2 months ago) okay wow its literally december like next week this is scary lol, where is time going idek.... so i guess as usual quite a bit has happened, lets start of by saying i lost my v card. im not actually sure if i mentioned it in my before post? but yeah that happened and im happy, it was so '' natural '' and i just felt super comfortable with it all, and so far its happened like 3 other times but thats it. i guess we've had 1 or 2 hiccups like silly arguments as you do, we have been with eachother romantically for 3 months now, officially 2 months but yeah its expected, lastnight we did argue well i went in on him quite a bit for very good reasons and i didnt apologise i didnt speak to him for a good 15 hours, and then messaged him because i wanted it sorted and i told him i cant apologize because i didnt say anything bad or that i didnt mean and he for i think the 1st/2nd time ever admitted and said that i dont have anything to say sorry for because i was completely right and didnt do anything wrong and that he just couldnt listen to it, and said sorry, and by him doing that it actually meant a lot to me that he understood, because in reality thats all that i wanted, im actually proud of what i said it was like getting it all off my chest, so yeah i work all the time now too 3/4 days a week whilst also going to school which is not fun, also jessica is now talking to a guy, he asked her to be his girlfriend but she said no that its too soon which im so happy shes a smart girl, theyre going to the cinema for their first lil date and im actually just sosossoosososso happy in my heart for her, like its about time a guy treats her right and shes waited so long for this, hopefully its all worth it in the end.

im no longer friends with my '' other bestfriend '' i quote that because she wasnt a real good, bestfriend, or even bestfriend at all, i was just being used constantly and so was jessica, so we stopped the friendship on good terms, i mean there was no argument or anything, we shared our fair amount of arguments a couple times a week, it was draining and unecessary and she was never going to speak to us after we finished school , we didnt even do things outside of school. so yeah.