Im in a mood where i hate everyone and everyone is irrelevant to me apart from 2 people and they know who they are, i dont even care anymore it is what it is and when i gtfo i wont know anyone anymore and they wont mean a thing so main priority is to study and leave this shithole forever because this is the last place i want to be in, been feeling like this for a while but nobody knows, im not going to annoy or put my favourite people down because of my fucked up life and situations so ill be the happiest i can be to them and make sure to be there for them and not let anybody hurt them ever, but trust me when i talk to these 2 people my problems do go away during that and thats the most best feeling ever, theyre so special to me and id see completely no purpose staying anymore because that is why im staying at this point,its a shame that i live in this damned country  and they live an hour flight away but when i say im moving to that country when i can im not joking, i sound like such a mess rightnow and i am inside and its embaressing to myself that im feeling like this because this isnt me and this isnt what i usually was, and idk what to do anymore corey and luke are the only 2 people keeping me going, theyre far away but the friendship with them is so close that it doesnt even matter, its horrible how people dont get or understand us the way we understand eachother and i honestly look down on all the people that dont because they discust me and ive turned into such a hateful person this past month but ig it will all settle the way its suppose to right? because i dont know how much longer i can take this