tbh the stuff that ive actually went through starting from the exact age of 13 up until the age of 16 has been traumatic, how isnt my trust and image completely shattered what the fuck i dont think ive sat down and just thought about how much shit ive went through as a child, even from the age of 4 a traumatizing secret that i cant tell anyone and im still standing, people may wonder at some of my shocking anger extents and my somewhat loud voice sometimes, my joke of a laugh, outgoing big personality, but jesus deep down when im by myself im none of that, id love to just wake up and be okay but its just too far deep in now