i feel like shit, the one person who i got attention that i craved and needed for months i get for a week and its like a drug to me, but he made it clear that its not that he wouldnt want a relationship with me but its that he just doesnt do relationships, not once, but twice in the space of 3 days, i wasnt even the one that suggested any of it, maybe it was just clarification but not once did i give hints of that, sure i may have dreamt of it because talking to him brings happieness but never actually, it sorta hurts because feelings gradually grow and i wonder how he stops it while i grow to like him more and more everyday putting myself through this, i mean is this really gonna be like charlotte and gaz type of relationship lol? cause im pretty sure im not as strong and could never be as strong as she was.