*the next day* lolllllllllllllllllll
Everyday just thinking of reasons to why this shit happening to me you know, ig this is like a diary? lmao, id die if someone found this, literally bye, im not good with expressing my feelings to other people, considering that im such an open person like i come out with anything and everything, whats the point of being shy. but yeah often people think i dont care about them because of my lack of words or my lack of telling them how much they mean to me or whatever, i cant describe how i feel because those people mean the world to me, and i cant tell them that because all the people that dont give a fuck about people say that 24/7 smh, been thinking of just dropping and cutting every person i talk to, loosing all my streaks and just disapearing from the social media im on, it wouldnt make a difference, im already gone, disapeared, lost in the physical life, the reason why i used '' physical '' and not ''real life '' is plainly because whatever we do online is still real life, real people, real interaction but the difference is all that you do comes from your mind and isnt spoken of, its kind of amazing though, the way you can meet real genuine people that live in other countries and know you better than anyone has ever known you, sure you might not be able to meet up with them everyday but you obviously will one day if you stay in touch, the shit part about having online friends is because you feel like you have to keep it a secret as if its bad or something because the people around you dont understand because they havent expirienced it, shame though in my opinion. Since when do i use these words and talk like this? i truly dont know, someone help please, i really mean it, if ur reading this then its probs too late and ive probs regretted every decision ive made including my life,,,,,im joking but im not